i have a wheat intolerance {and i'm pretty sure lactose as well}. and before coming to university i was really good at avoiding both of those things. and then i went away to school. and it's really hard. i don't have a mother who will buy me the type of food i need. or cook me special meals. i have the kitchen staff at the dining hall. and they don't seem to be as understanding. there's also the two a.m. pizza runs with friends that look oh so appealing. and the cupcakes our don makes for us. and it all looks so good you know? it would be so much easier to just pretend like i don't have dietary restrictions and just eat whatever. so what does any logical university student do? they try to pretend they can eat whatever they want. but friends, i wish it was that easy. for the last couple of months i've been "yoloing" it and just eating whatever i wanted. wheat free or not. and it's really starting to catch up with me. the headaches that set it. the joint pain. stomach pain. bloating. trouble sleeping. it's so not worth it! but everyday i find myself eating waffles or that slice of pizza.
i wish i had millions of dollars sometimes. so that i could just move to a city {preferably in london} and live in a really fabulous apartment. and buy local organic food. and cook meals that i can actually eat. and life would just be so much better. that is what has been on my mind recently.
more realisitcally i'm really looking forward to going home for christmas holidays and not eat junk food 24/7. and have some gluten free food {who would have ever thought i'd look forward to that}. i also really need to make a better attempt at eating food that i'm actually suppose to be eating at university.
i've also been having a bit of mid-life blog crisis {which seems to happen more frequently than not}. sometimes i think my life right now is just so boring and trivial. i live in a room that is probably the size of most people's bathrooms. i go to class. i study. i occasionally go out. and repeat. i post poorly lit picture of my outfits in a room that is wayyy too yellow. i complain about things that bother me. and somedays, like today, i just stop and think "who would actually want to read about this, because i certainly wouldn't". the blogs that i enjoy reading i enjoy because of the lifestyle they live, or portray, is something i enjoy or aspire to be like. i wish i could take really cool pictures of my day like
this blog. or share polaroid pictures of me going on daily adventure's like
this one. i wish my outfit posts would turn out like
this. i don't have a significant other to go on adventures with. i'm not a size zero and a fabulous model. i don't own copious amounts of vintage furniture and accessories. i guess i just don't know what i want my blog to be about right now. but i'm in the process of figuring that out.
for anyone who actually read all of this, props. i really don't like ranting on my blog because it just feels pathetic, but i find sometimes it helps sort ideas out. only two more weeks and then i'll be done finals and enjoying christmas break. can. not. wait!!
